Almost May

So, I still don't have anything revelatory to write about but I decided to post anyway. My littlest little guy has not been feeling well since Friday. I think it must be a cold combined with cutting 4 molar teeth at the same time. He acts better today so that is wonderful. His big brother has been having "center of attention" withdrawals or something because he has been a pistol for the past week. I will not bore you with details but let me just say that I have been about to lose it. It will get better, I know it will. My parents are still here and sane after raising 4 of us so i know this will pass.

I was reading SevenChicks blog last night and was encouraged by missmusic and her post. I have been feeling a little blah lately. I can't really put my finger on anything particular. I guess it is just alot of uncertain feelings and stuff. And I am a person that sometimes thinks too much. A chapter of my life is closing and while I feel at peace with it, I am still a little sad about it ending. I am also wondering what will be next. I firmly believe that God gives us all gifts and talents to use for Him. And lately I feel like those things have just been laying dormant. I am praying for an outlet. I know God has a plan and that His timing is perfect. Maybe I am supposed to be learning in the meantime. My hubby and I are going to a new church. I have mentioned it before. He has been content to attend on Sunday mornings with no further commitment. And I feel like I am withering on the inside. I crave socialization with other believers. I also love to serve, whether in the music department, kids church, nursery, etc. I would also love to go through their Family and Foundations class (membership class). I do not want to do these things without my husband since he is the head of our home. So I am praying that he will either realize that it will be good for him to do or at least realize that it is something that is important to me.

I guess that sums it up so if you guys could pray for me, I would appreciate it.

Still here

I am feeling un-inspired lately when it comes to blogging so I will resist posting random stuff for now. But I am here healthy and doing well. Praying for so many that seem to be going through some tough times; deployments, sickness, heartbreak, etc.

So, until I have something interesting to say.......see ya.

Victory Weekend

Well, it seems that I have neglected my blogging duties long enough. I just wanted to rave about the wonderful weekend that my husband and I shared this past weekend. We went together to Victory Weekend at our church. It was such a wonderful time of learning, sharing, praying and overcoming. The Lord is marvelous and I thank Him for the opportunity that the hubby and I shared. I was so thrilled that my hubby wanted to go and that we were able to go together. I know that most of you do not know him but as a general rule he avoids groups of people. I have seen the Lord working in him, and me and in our marriage. I feel like a newlywed again. So Hallelujah!!!

I am anticipating being an aunt twice over before Christmas. My sister is due in August and my sister-in-law is due in November. I am so excited!!!! I just wish that we all lived closer so we could do the baby shopping and stuff together. My sister is expecting a little boy but we don't know what my brother and his wife are having. I will be thrilled with either but I am jonesing to buy some frilly dresses with matching headbands and lacy socks. I didn't get to buy anything like that for my own kids, being that they are boys.

I am so proud of both sets of soon-to-be-parents. I know that they will be excellent parents. I have teased my brother about being the only guy in a house full of girls for years. But he is the kind of guy that would be a wonderful daddy to little girls or to rowdy boys. Same goes for the brother-in-law. I just can't wait until Christmas this year with 4 little ones. God is GREAT!!!

How much is that little boy in the window?

The one with the beautiful blue eyes?

Ok, my oldest is drving me a bit batty today. It seems that it does not matter what his brother has, he wants it, wherever his brother is, he needs to be velcroed to his side or pushing him down. And this morning he threw his brother out of his little chair and gave him a black eye. So big brother is in his room, alone, for his own protection. (from me) Don't get me wrong, I love my children but I cannot stand to see them inflicting pain on each other. And as a general rule, it is the oldest giving and the youngest getting it. My littlest guy is so tolerant of big brother and probably the toughest kid I have seen in a long time. So it is just frustrating to see him getting bullied and beat up. Makes me feel like I did something wrong as a momma. And before I get comments saying that I am too hard on myself, let me just say that I think I am a pretty good momma. I love my kids, I am just having a "moment".

On another note, the hubby and are going to a "Victory Weekend" at our church tonight and tomorrow. I am looking forward to it. Please pray that we learn what we need to learn and that we will be willing to let God work in us. For those of you who know us, this is a huge thing for us, to be going as a couple. So already that is a praise report.

Have a wonderful weekend!!!!

Invasion Of The Body Snatchers

I guess I have been in extreme denial but there is just no denying it any longer. SO here it goes...

My body has been stolen by someone and replaced with a squishy, misproportioned body.

I was never what most people considered skinny but I was for the most part okay with my body. I liked to think that I had a "Jessica Rabbit" thing going on. You know, the boobs, the hips, the butt. Well, no longer. My slender waist has been replaced by an inner tube, my boobs have completely deflated and decided to travel south indefinitley, and my butt has drooped and spread. If I had started out this way, I probably wouldn't be complaining that much because I am not overweight or unfit. Its just that the body I had before I had children went on vacation and decided to never come back. The thing I am having the most problem with is that my stomach is no longer trim and taut. It still has not recovered from my two 9lb2oz babies. It just sits there taunting me.

Now, I cannot say that I am without fault. I did decide to have two wonderful children and I did decide to eat everything and anything I wanted and I did decide that exercise is for the birds. It just hit me that I am almost 29 and that my body needs my help if I want it to look better. It's not like I am 18 anymore. Oh, to have that body back.........and I didn't appreciate it then. Boy, was I stupid.

So, here is to rice cakes, gallons of water, and loads of Pilates and exercise.

YEAH RIGHT!!!

Watabagutata Pshaw

This is what i am hearing from my littlest guy. He is trying so hard to talk but it is coming out as the cutest jibberish you have ever heard. He is so intent and speaks with such inflection that it is absolutely hilarious. He says some words very well, you know.....mama, daddy, bye, bye, etc. But he will talk for minutes on end with his "special" dialect. TOO Cute!!!

I am sooooo tired of my hair. I can't decide if I am growing it out or if I just haven't made it to the hairdresser in a while. I want it to either be shorter or I want it alot longer than it is. I hate the growing out process, which is probably why I usually give up and get it cut shorter again. My hubby like long hair (what is with guys and long hair?) but I prefer it shorter. So, there is the quandry. I am beginning to feel like a chia pet or a very fluffy Q-tip. My hair is very thick and it is just wanting to stand up everwhere. And the fact that I do not like to spend alot of time on my hair is not helping. And to think I wanted to go to cosmetology school when I was younger.....what a joke.

My oldest son thinks that he is "the boss". He likes to tell his brother what to do, when to do it, what not to do. Right now the youngest is freakin out because his brother took his cup and told him that he didn't need it. I guess I can't get too frustrated because I made my brother and sisters miserable with my constant " I know best because I am the oldest" attitude. Maybe it is a first born thing. Not sure. But I am "paying for my raising".

Thursday I took the kids to town to eat lunch with Mamaw and my sister. On the way my oldest told me that we needed to buy a playground for our house. I told him that we would need to save some money up before we could buy one but that we would get one soon. Then I forgot about it. Well, all afternoon he kept checking his pockets for money and when he couldn't find it he would ask one of us for some more change. So we would give him some. When we got in the car to come home, he said that we needed to go to the store to get a playground. Actually he said that we needed to go to Lowes. I told him that we couldn't buy it because momma needed to save some money and he fell apart crying telling me that he had money to buy it. It was so pathetic. That is why he was collecting money all afternoon. He was saving money for the playground. It was one of those moments that you wish was on tape so you could show it to them later. He was so serious and I had to explain that I was proud of him for saving money but we needed to save more. Children are so precious!!!! Oh how I love those two little boys.