Goals

 I am not great at follow through on goals. I am a wonderful researcher, planner, organizer, list maker and starter. I have so much determination and motivation for approximately 36 hours.  I have collected a wide array of hobbies and the needed supplies. I have donated more unopened materials to Salvation Army than I would care to admit. I own various exercise equipment, workout dvds, and sports bras. But I don't workout. I am not sure what all of these behaviors say about me. I have the best of intentions but still do not follow through. 

 But I know that I am a wonderful mom, a faithful wife and friend. I have displayed so much perseverance and determination in these areas.  I have dug in my heels and refused to give up, I have pushed through to do the hard things. I have done the work to still be on this side of death, I am still married, I am still here. I have plowed through impossible odds, I have crushed my pride to seek help, and I have put one foot in front of the other each day. 

 So, what does this say about me? I'm not really sure. But I have reached the point in my life that I no longer really care. Life is what it is. I am who I am. And I like her. Even if I never finish those things that are just not that important. Because I have learned what is. And today that is enough.