Perfect People

"Perfect People"
-Natalie Grant

Never let 'em see you when you're breaking
Never let 'em see you when you fall
That's how we live and that's how we try
Tell the world you've got it all together
Never let them see what's underneath
Cover it up with a crooked smile
But it only lasts for a little while

[CHORUS:]
There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scared
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Suddenly it's like a weight is lifted
When you hear the words that you are loved
He knows where you are and where you've been
And you never have to go there again

Who lived and died to give new life
To heal our imperfections
So look up and see out let grace be enough

By a perfect God

Be changed by a perfect God
Be changed

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I heard this song today and it just about brought me to tears. It probably would have if I didn't have my "be strong and don't let anything make cracks in the dam of emotions" face on.

It was such a wonderful thing to hear and to read. Because for a long time I have tried very hard (in vain) to be one of those "perfect people". I am not sure why I have felt this way. I do have my suspicions though. First is the fact that I am a Preachers Kid. When you are a preachers kid you either conform or rebel. No matter which you choose it is always never the right choice according to everyone watching. For some reason there seems to be a different standard for preachers families. Maybe it is because people think that preachers and their families don't and shouldn't have any problems. Or that they are not entitled to screw up and need forgiveness every now and then. Or maybe it that people want to see if anyone can live out Gods Word the way He desired. I am really not sure. But for whatever reason I grew up with the "me on the inside" and the "me everyone saw". Most of the time they were one and the same. But when it came to showing emotion or needing to reach out for help, I couldn't do it. Still I am having a hard time with it to be honest. Consequently the wall of protection has gotten higher and higher. Factor is dissapointments and failures and you have a pretty big mess.

But through it all I am so thankful that the Lord knew me from the inside out. Even I was unsure of who I was or what I believed about myself. He has never given up on me. I know that He desires that I be a truly authentic person and Christian. And I am at a place where God is stripping layers away to reveal the beautiful daughter He says I am. Without Him I am nothing, but because of Him I can do anything.

So today as I listened to the song I was beckoned by my Father once again to come, warts and all, and just sit at His feet. And let Him hold me, love me, sing over me, shape and mold me into the reflection of His righteousness. Anything I try apart from Him is "false perfection", never lasting and leaving me wanting.

Thank you Lord that I don't have to be perfect to approach You. I can come as I am and let you work Your will in me. Nothing surprises or shock You. You love me in spite of myself.